hold your head up girl

Those of you who know me know that mother's day is not one of my favorite holidays. There is nothing worse than an entire day devoted to mothers when you have no clue what its like to have one. I remember when I was a little girl there was nothing  I desired more than having a mom. I would see the other girls mom's bring them lunches or come on field trips and I couldn't help the overwhelming envy.  Those girls had someone to teach them how to shave their legs and put on makeup. They had someone to tell their secrets to and talk about boys with.  My sister and I have gotten really good at pretending to be strong, but days like this we always seem to let our guard down and have a good cry. For the most part a good cry always leads to some sort or revalation. On this mother's the little girl in me quit feeling sorry for herself and was instead impowered to be a better mother than mine was. For those of you who have parents that have dissapointed you, hold your head up. We choose who we want to be. even if we weren't born into the best circumstances we have the power of choice. We can choose to be better, we can choose to hold our heads up.

Though God didn't bless me with the traditional family, I had 3 amazing women in my life that have directed me into the woman I am today and the woman I am still striving to become. I don't know who I would be without these beautiful, strong women. I love you ma'ma, juju, and joy.